Ch, Ch, Changin'

The past year of my life has been full of changes. This was the year that something came over me and I decided that I had to buck the status quo. This is not something that I did lightly or easily, and I’m still struggling with the impact of the huge life changes that I made.

Lately, I have been thinking about why and how other people change their life.  It is interesting to think about why someone would want to dramatically change their life. Maybe someone changes out of desperation, maybe out of necessity, and maybe because they can finally see what the future holds if things remain constant. Whatever reason people decide to change, it is not easy. Getting up the momentum to make a life change is scary and difficult. But the real challenge comes with sustaining that change. However, often the change is so great, that we cannot go back.

I heard a physicist talk about why we are so obsessed with time travel. He said we are obsessed and fascinated with it because time is not reversible. You can’t make a whole egg out of a scrambled one. Once something has occurred, we can’t undo it. That is the problem with change. As you begin to live out your new life, you realize that you have irreversibly moved out of your old life. And just because you made a change, doesn’t necessarily mean that you wanted everything to change. But now you have to begin to live with your new reality, and as my good friend TV has shown us, reality isn’t always that glamorous. It then becomes easy to think about your old life and become nostalgic for it. At least for me, I tend to forget about the bad things and only remember the good. It makes you doubt the reason for making changes in the first place.

Now that I’m finishing another year of my life, I am pretty sure that everything I did last year was ok. It put me on the path I’m on now. And the path isn’t perfect, but at the end of the day, I like who I am and I like my life. Yes, I’m lonely sometimes. Yes I get scared about the future. But I chose to make some big changes, and instead of feeling bored and uninspired about the future, I’m looking forward to this adventure called life.

It’s time to move forward. Ziveli!